nung umalis yung mom ko papuntang Canada to work and later on file papers for petition last February 7, 2009, sobra akong nalungkot nun.. i'm closer to my mom than to my dad.. ewan ko ba, may thread-like attachment kami ng mom ko, as in di mo kami mapaghihiwalay, well, iba talaga ang batang laki sa mom kaysa sa dad.. she said, Anak, 2 years lang yun..mabilis lang yun..magugulat ka na lang one day paggising mo, nakalipas na yung 2 years, just stay strong.. so i patiently wait for freaking two years.. at first, sobrang di ako makamove-on.. so sad! almost every night umiiyak ako, praying that when i wake up, sana nakalipas na yung 2 years.. well, i think i survived na..
now, as we arrange our papers for petition, ngayon lang nagsisink-in sa akin na, malapit na akong umalis, for the past 2 years, i actually planned kung anu yung gagawin ko as i fly there, ano ba yung goals ko.. ayos na.. :) pero as i look back sa mga taong nakasama ko, parang.. ito ba? ito ba yung mga taong iiwan ko? ..when i really don't know what will happen as i get there.. yung pakiramdam, parang sad, na happy, na excited, and nervous.. UNEXPLAINABLE.. sana i have this one intimate moment with myself clarifying all this things that bother me.. so far, all i can say is,...
i'll cross the bridge when i get there.. wish me luck.. :]
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